At the end of last spring, I began my journey through foreskin restoration. Surprisingly, a lot happened in a short amount of time. During that first week, I started using manual tugging using method 2 of Tally, which is illustrated on http://www.restoringforeskin.org/public/manual-tugging/method-2. The method involves encircling the shaft skin with both hands and tugging in opposite directions. This will cause a lot of tension on the skin between the hands, which will help the skin stretch and cause it to undergo mitosis. I worked on it for a combined hour per day, which fortunately wasn’t too difficult to find the time for.
I started noticing a difference almost immediately. It only took a couple of days or so to feel the stretched skin touching my corona, a sensation I began to feel almost all the time. Once a week was up, I noticed a dramatic difference in how I could masturbate. It is worth pointing out here that despite being in my late twenties, before last winter I never masturbated to orgasm in my life and only orgasmed in the occasional wet dream. The reason is pretty much related to being circumcised (and hence gives me an additional reason to try foreskin restoration). I was never sure how to masturbate. The up-and-down moton a male uses to masturbate never came naturally to me. Since I was circumcised, that up-and-down motion seemed too rough to me; too much friction was involved. I never thought to use any kind of lube, although even if I did look up that this was the proper way to masturbate circumcised, I wouldn’t have done it because I wouldn’t have liked the feel of lube on my hands. I will also admit here that I have a few sexual fetishes that don’t involve achieving an orgasm and ejaculating and that I alternatively got off on (though I won’t elaborate on them here). I also put my lack of orgasm down to never having a girlfriend. In other words, it appeared to me that my lack of romantic life was getting in the way of pleasuring myself.
Then about a year ago I heard about a sex toy called a fleshlight, which replicated a vagina, that a male could use to masturbate with to simulate actual sexual intercourse. I was instantly curious and ordered one for myself last winter. A problem I had at the time, however, was that I was currently on the anti-depressant Zoloft for reasons I won’t get into here. I was on a dosage of 100 mg per day, which was unfortunately making it really difficult to get an erection, let alone masturbate satisfactorily, even when I tried using the fleshlight. I then lowered my dosage down to 75 mg per day and in the spring it finally happened. I had my first real orgasm while awake while using the fleshlight and it was pretty good.
After a week of foreskin restoration, however, I didn’t even need the fleshlight to masturbate to orgasm. My shaft skin had loosened quite a bit, and I could easily slide the skin up and down over most of the glans. When I sat down, my skin actually went over the corona and touched the glans. It was incredible. There was, however, a downside to it all. Once a week had passed, the feel of the skin against the corona and/or glans was pretty much constant, and I couldn’t help but feel that it felt really weird and somewhat uncomfortable. I don’t know why it felt that way, but it just did.
I stopped restoring since I now wasn’t sure if I was indeed making the right decision. My psychologist with whom I was discussing my issue with being circumcised and the foreskin restoration with wanted me to contact my doctor to discuss the issue further with. I had discussed the possibility of foreskin restoration with this specific doctor before and while he had no opinion one way or another of it himself, he had no issue with my doing it. I tried setting up an appointment with him, but he was unfortunately unavailable and so I saw another doctor about my attempt at foreskin restoration.
Unfortunately, this doctor was less supportive of foreskin restoration. He said it didn’t work well and that he had known someone who had attempted it but stopped because of discomfort. He recommended I not make another attempt at it. He did say, however, that the skin brushing against the corona and glans would be something that I would get used to with time.
A week or two passed. I had no idea what to think. I didn’t particularly like the second doctor’s opinion on foreskin restoration, especially since I did read about how it worked great for so many circumcised men. Maybe he was more familiar with surgical foreskin restoration, which is a surgical procedure used to reconstruct a functional replacement of a foreskin. I read that surgical foreskin restoration is not a very good procedure, and that non-surgical foreskin restoration is way more effective since you’re growing back a natural continuation of the skin, rather than sewing skin onto the existing skin. Believe me, if the surgical method was effective I would have opted for it. It wold be more expensive, but it would take way less time than the non-surgical method.
After a week or two, I ended up contacting a man who had undergone foreskin restoration online about this weird and uncomfortable sensation that I had encountered and if he had encountered the same thing. He told me that he had indeed experienced that sensation, but that I should get used to it in time. He also recommended I get some O-rings for myself to keep the skin over the glans when I’m not restoring, as this would cause me to get used to this new sensation rather quickly (in about a week).
I also saw my psychologist again about attempting foreskin restoration again, despite what the second doctor said. He understood how I felt and could see no problems with me continuing and in using O-rings, assuming a doctor gave the okay with using O-rings. He was also supportive in that he helped me sort out my feelings of uncertainty with foreskin restoration by listing benefits and costs/risks of proceeding. In the pros list we listed feeling empowered, feeling whole, potential for whole body orgasms (which a lot of restored men experience), don’t have to spend as much money on lube, my penis will be able to cope better with rough sexual activity, and no pain is involved. In the costs/risks list, we listed uncertainty about outcome, will not restore everything, and do/will I like how my “new penis” functions? He helped me to see that some risks are worth taking, helping me conclude to continue with my restoration. I’m very grateful to him for this, especially since he didn’t know about foreskin restoration before I saw him about it.
So I resumed my foreskin restoration. When I got the O-rings, I thankfully managed to get an appointment with the original doctor this time. I took the O-rings in and asked if it was all right to use them. He said he wasn’t sure himself, but he would get in touch with a few other doctors who would know. I waited patiently, continuing to restore my foreskin with manual tugging. The doctor unfortunately had a really hard time trying to get a referral for me to see someone else. He had tried to get in touch with urologists, but the urologists told him he needed to get in touch with plastic surgeons over this issue (despite it being non-surgical foreskin restoration that I was doing). The plastic surgeons then told him to go back to the urologists. Finally, my doctor managed to get a referral for me to see a urologist, though I wouldn’t get in until this coming April. In the mean time, I could continue with my manual tugging.
I believe this experience shows the varied attitudes of foreskin restoration in the medical community, and that potential restorers need to be careful of whom they trust. While I do think it’s important to get medical advice from doctors, we have to understand they are human and not gods. A lot of doctors simply do not know about this remedy, which was a contributing factor in why I started this blog. I remain optimistic, however, that the urologist I’m seeing in April will have a more informed opinion on how best to proceed. I plan to push on regardless though and will tell more of my wonderful progress in the next post.
Love always, Jake Norman (pseudonym), foreskin restorer and intactivist